Been hiding a lot lately, and for good reasons too; with this semester almost finishing in about two weeks, I've received more homework and study reviews to take care of since the last few tests in all 3 classes are coming in extremely faster than expected. With that said, I've been working my ass off the entire time, and man my head hurts xD to top it off, I've gotten myself a second job to handle, and with black friday week coming up (along with christmas) it's much more work. I'm challenging myself either by accident or on purpose, but it's what keeps me going and moving around instead of sitting down and doing nothing all day. With this, I'm not able to have some good time to draw and all like before (hell, I haven't even began that TMNT story that I promised you all two months ago).
Sadly to say, I'm going to have to cancel that story, along with a few others, because I've just grown out of it all. I've grown out of drawing freely like I used to, having the dream of becoming a character designer is now just a fantasy that I had back when I was a teen. I've talked to a few friends about it, and it just seems like their response to the career made the entire idea of it all feel so dull in my life. I felt like I'll never have the chance to become what I wanted to be, because I feel like I won't be good at it; at least 2-3 artists are accepted to become character designers in popular animation studios like Cartoon Network and Nickelodeon! I think hearing them talk about that sort of stuff made me feel bummed out, made me feel like I won't be able to make it in that sort of position. So it's also the reason why I've been distant from my pencil and sketchbook (not to mention my tablet, it's just collecting dust).
So since I've grown tired of that, I changed my major, and am currently going to study as a medical lab technician
follow the bloodline of nurses, doctors, and medical lab techs in my family for once. And to be honest, I truly love the idea; to study parasites, blood samples and other body fluids is so much fun, just talking about it is making me extremely excited. Although I have to stay in community college for another year (along with taking numerous classes for the program), I'm pretty excited to get to know more about this program. Drawing for now will just be a fun little hobby that I have, and maybe writing fictional stories in literature will be a hobby as well (creating comics are tough, I'll tell 'ya that). So with that, it means that I'll be even more busy, and my artwork will be posted VERY slowly within the time, so expect silence from me until I randomly post something up either on here or tumblr (I'm pretty sure most of you are following me and/or my RP blogs).
I just needed to put that out there, cause I've realized that some of you were asking me when I'll be posting new pictures up again (especially on tumblr). Well, now you know, and I hope that me cancelling those stories doesn't bum any of you out too much. Sometimes I wish that I've never spoken to others about my plans for my artistic future, but at times I do thank them. Just hope that I'm truly making the right decision for myself. Whatever happens, happens, and if this doesn't work out, then I can at least try and take a shot at developing to become a character designer.